The path of writing is narrow and treacherous.
It’s a good thing I’ve gotten more involved with a local writing club, and that I’m meeting them in person every two weeks. I’ve felt like I’ve been going at this alone, with only myself, the information I find online, and the books I have about writing. Meeting other people who are writing and who are serious about it has been great for me.
I often regret that I didn’t get serious about my writing sooner. I don’t hold any illusions – I know I’ve got an uphill battle now. My first published flash fiction was more of a fluke, it seems – it was accepted early on, before I got many rejections. Now I’m seeing the rejections, and it’s disheartening – what if I can’t do it again? What if I can’t get another work published by a reputable website or magazine? I’ve been steadfastly refusing to share these rejected stories on this blog – I don’t want to narrow my options for future publication (and so many publishers won’t publish something that has been blogged).
My ideas have stagnated somewhat. I have been working with drafts of older work lately – it’s been a while since I’ve written something entirely new. There were so many times I wished I could just hand off my ideas to a ghostwriter. Somebody who has higher degrees in creative writing, someone who’s been published many times. But I know I can’t do this – not only could I never afford a ghostwriter, the stories that came out wouldn’t seem like mine. I have to do this, I have to get the ideas out in my way. Nothing else will truly satisfy my urges.
April’s A-to-Z blogging challenge helped to reinforce this determination. Those Evil Spirits that I researched are ideas for a novel-length piece I’m working on, and doing the research helped me get some more ideas for the beings that will populate my dark fantasy world. The downside is that I didn’t do nearly enough writing in April. I couldn’t find the balance I needed between blogging, studying my edX course, preparing for the classes I teach, and writing. I won’t be doing daily posts on my blog any more. But I will post 2 or 3 times a week, and those posts will be helped by pre-scheduling – a trick I gained full appreciation for in the A-to-Z Blogging Challenge. I also learned ways to keep my posts shorter, to keep them from taking too long to compose.
With my slightly reduced workload now, I need to get back to writing as much as I should be. I’m glad I did the A-to-Z challenge, but now I really need to get more manuscripts submitted. I must also try not to worry so damn much. I’ve got a long way to go, but I do have people I can meet – people traversing the same road of words & narrative.